self healing

I wish I can share my feelings whenever I feel down.
I wish it was you who can lend me your ears
and give me undivided attention.

But I don’t get to share. Not yet.
I’m afraid that my emotional/sensitive personality
would unintentionally hurt you.
So by time, I just heal, by myself.
But for how long?












ps: we will get disappointed  if we expect from people,
thus learn to put hopes and trust on Allah.

Achievement unlocked

Bismillah


Assalamualaikum, Jumaah mubarakah everyone! I doubt there’s any reader for my half-hiatus blog XD

Anyway I just wanna share how glad I am to be able to reach another milestone in my career (though it’s not a big thing) but I haven’t done it since undergrad! So today I’ve done a fibre post and core build up for composite as final restoration of RCT treated tooth (21). It took me 2 hours to finish the treatment (so long!) but I blame the ineffectiveness of the burs. Tak lut weh. Need to use new ones I guess. 

PS: Of course I suggested the patient to do crown as final restoration, however due to logistics reasons patient currently unable to go for crown at specialist clinic.

I attended the course by Restorative dept (govt) last year, and so thankful I found a suitable patient to do it this year, and because specialists also encouraged us to do simple case in primary setting so i wanted to push myself :) Yeah, it’s kinda boring to do same procedures everyday as a regular dental officer (extractions, fillings, scaling) so I wanted to venture into new things to polish my skills and boost my confidence.

But it comes with a cost of course, I bought the materials myself since govt budget is so limited (especially at the end of the year) and I feel it would be unfair to request from SDO (I doubt she would even consider it lol) if the materials not being used often.. well resto specialist did told us to ask for district’s budget (even provided us the materials price quotation and suppliers), not just for post + core but also for simple crown and bridge. Currently tempted to do anterior crown as well, however after looking at the price for impression materials....hahaha nevermind..maybe later >.<

So what shall I try next? I feel bad for myself as I’m not keen to further my studies..yet (envy those who’s determined to study!) but I really want to do attachment at Resto clinic :D Insyaa Allah one fine day, please pray for me so that I can transfer to work at my place, Negeri Sembilan :) They have been postponing my transfer for 2 years already :( Ya Allah bukakanlah hijab para panel mesyuarat terhadap namaku supaya aku dapat berpindah ke klinik di Seremban pada mesyuarat bulan ini, aminnn.


Thank you for reading, may you have a great weekend :)

Empty thoughts

I doubt there's somebody out there who can understand me enough to not criticize me over my negative personality that I absolutely can't change overnight because the truth is-- you can't change people. You can just understand them, make them feel better by suggesting how they can see things in different  perspectives. People are not always positive; no you're not. (Except for Prof Muhaya :')

I salute anyone who can describe me as a whole honestly. Because sometimes, I don't even understand myself. I've read somewhere, don't let people describe you. But to me, I can learn how people see me through that. And I hope I can be a better person, as days goes by. But (again), I'm the type to just go with the flow. I avoid thinking about the future cause it's exhausting. To this day, I'm not growing in a way I imagined, perhaps new environment can help a bit, later on?

I miss usrah- my last usrah group. My murabbi is amazing, she still is. May Allah grant her His Great Blessings  day by day.






Ps: pms week is when i want to avoid people at all costs.
Pss: i'm an ISFP

i wonder..

..how do people have pure hearts?

Are they born with it?





ps: I'm thinking out loud

supplementary pro exam

Alhamdulillah! God is Gracious, Most Merciful.

Most of us (extended students) who were struggling with cons requirements (especially) within these 2 blocks are finally eligible to take the supplementary pro exam. Yeay us!
Thank you Allah, our parents du'a and of course, our lecturers supportive hearts. Ni baru announcement eligibility to take exam dah happy macam ni, can u imagine the struggle?

But sadly.. there's still a good friend of mine who's unable to take the cons exam. I hope you can finish this soon so we can attend the convo together (i'm praying for you) this year ;)

My paper will be on the 3rd of february 2016, I have about a week to go and I haven't started reading yet. omgoshhh. Procrastination at its best >.<

Gotta go do some reading. Pray for my success okay bloggerpeeps? Muahs :*

Supplementary 4th Professional Examination, 

Year 5 (1-19th Feb 2016) Session 2015/2016

My subject: Conservative Dentistry

Please include me in you du'a as well  ^_~




ps: what kind of jobs could i do during pre-working period later? i need money to go for a vacay -_-