most familiar stranger

you are a stranger now
and we don’t
hang out anymore
but you are still the person
i’d understand the most
my most familiar stranger

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doesn't matter anymore

too much heart aches these days. perhaps i'm too sensitive..

when you feel that you don't matter to anyone anymore,
when you feel that your presence or absence don't really make a difference anymore,
when you feel that your words don't touch others' hearts anymore,
when you feel that nobody appreciates you as you are anymore,

just remember this-- Allah is always there for His servant. 
Listening, caring, forgiving for people who turn to Him. 
Now.. does that ease your heart my dear? .





ps: consoling my fragile vulnerable heart.. 
My condolences goes to the families & relatives of MH017 passengers & crews. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raajiun.. Al-fatihah.
Let's Strive for Lailatulqadr~

Year 4 Summary

Lately, my posts have been more personal, than the previous years.

I miss the funny side of me too, haha.

But being a 4th year student has taught me so much. I know my real self now and also got to know who the real friends are. Unfortunately, as I'm getting older, I barely have any close friends here. True story :) 

Maybe, I don't deserve to have one. I get grumpy at times especially when I don't get enough rest (sleep). Only sekime can handle me but well, she's busy with her club & society. Barely talk to her. So that explains my lonely life.. erh

Being a clinical student is so tiring that you have to make appointments by yourself (every day) and you need to find suitable cases to complete your requirements. And this year I had to issue & review at least my 8th denture (5 pairs this year)  so you can imagine how tiring the labworks had drained all my energy. Not including fabricating the ortho appliances (Clark Twin Blocks).

Struggle masak denture malam2

Me & sekime with her braces on! 

My 6th denture framework.. Done a Co-Cr for the lower one using altered cast technique which needs extra 1 visit

Clark Twin Blocks for Interceptive Ortho Treatment

One thing I learned (every year actually), is don't hesitate to do something and do not postpone it to the last minute! Be it patients or studies. Just do it. Or else you'll get stucked and at some point you'll lose hope. 

I was having difficult times when I had to do 2nd attempt for 2 of my promotional exams, and 1 re-viva. So basically I didn't passed smoothly for all my 3 clinical promo exams. You had to find your own patients, getting paranoid with your 1st attempt failures, and had to choose which examiners you want to do your exam with. And oh, at the same time don't forget to catch up with the requirements yea. My brain got jammed and I was very2 emotional during that time. Crying is my routine.

My secondary impression during 2nd attempt for Prostho. Baik sgt pakcik ni :) 

But after all exams done, I managed to put a smile on my face. I believe Allah has better plans for me so I just tawakkal to Allah. How I wish I didn't have to repeat my exams, but Alhamdulillah my requirements are okay compared to those who passed all exams but struggling to finish the requirements. 

Clinics and lectures just finished yesterday and now, I'm preparing for my end of block 4 exam this Monday. I still don't know whether I pass or not and eligible to be in the final year, still praying for it Insyaa Allah. 

Yesterday I had mixed feelings between happy (end of clinic) and sad, because one of our classmates has left KOD for good.. There's a protocol where we can't study here for more than 8 years, so he was asked to leave because he didn't take any promo exams this year.. I hope you're doing well out there and become a fine man 1 day insyaa Allah.. Thank you for being our friend although it was for a short duration. Pray for our success here too :)

Oh, not to forget, I managed to join a national dental conference (MIDEC 2014) last 2 weeks and it was a precious experience indeed! So much I learned there which somehow motivated me to open up my own clinic one day :) aminnn. Definitely need to participate again next year :D

Dummy patient from Japan.. she can talk & express her feelings!

Dlm lif pon sempattt selfie

KLCC yaww. Makan berdiri kayh

We are the volunteer team :)

So that's all-- my ups and downs as a 4th year dental student. I'm so tired I can't wait to finish this last exam and have a great long holiday. Thank you for reading and do pray for my success yea!

ps: gonna miss my partner kak farahah and my cubicle I5 hee

Resolution

I'm going to prove that you're wrong.


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Ps: because sleeping worth more than listening to someone in need

3rd Ramadhan as a 3rd Year student

Salam Ramadan Kareem to all :)

Woahhh it's been a year since my last post here. What a HECTIC year! Don't even have time to update. lol

Bukannya takdak masa langsung, tapi sumpah, bila anda jadi Year 3 dental student (in IIUM la other uni xsure), masa senggang yang ada tu anda ingin gunakan dengan sebaiknya untuk.. tido. ehee

Letih sangat-sangat tahun ni, sebab baru nak adapt diri dengan patients (dah start clinical year!) and at the same time kena bahagikan otak & jasad jugak untuk jadi medical student. Ya ampunn.. Boleh jadi bipolar tahu? :p dan untuk orang yang kurang stamina macam aku ni memang tidur tu adalah sesuatu yang nikmat.. lebih rela tidur daripada makan. eh ye ke?

Dan harini alhamdulillah, dah selesai 3rd Professional Exam, dah pindah semua barang-barang ke bilik baru yang jauh gilaaa ni (sakit segala urat sendi) dan dah menetap senyap2 disini. Dah tengok SSID sampai episod 7 to kill the time, dan sekarang dah tak tahu nak buat apa. haha. *gi ngaji nuhh*

Kenapa tak balik lagi kau tanya? Sebab nak tengok result yang akan keluar petang niii insyaa Allah. Cuak gilaaa tahu? Pro exam ni adalah benda yang paling menakutkan setiap tahun, sebab kalau tak lulus, kena repeat the whole year again. huu.. and this year it's even scarier because if u failed General Medicine & General Surgery (GMGS) subjects, you can't re-sit for the paper before actually being announce a repeat year student. huuu..

Ya Allah, kau kurniakanlah kejayaan lulus dengan cemerlang kepada hamba-Mu ini ya Allah.. aminnn :')

Dan sempena bulan puasa yang mulia ni, sementara syaitan2 tengah ditambat, mungkin kita boleh doa dengan lebih khusyuk dan lebih mudah terhijab doa kita hendaknya insyaa Allah..

So apa tunggu lagi? Selamat berpuasa semua :)

from Owh So Muslim #osm :)