self healing

I wish I can share my feelings whenever I feel down.
I wish it was you who can lend me your ears
and give me undivided attention.

But I don’t get to share. Not yet.
I’m afraid that my emotional/sensitive personality
would unintentionally hurt you.
So by time, I just heal, by myself.
But for how long?












ps: we will get disappointed  if we expect from people,
thus learn to put hopes and trust on Allah.

Achievement unlocked

Bismillah


Assalamualaikum, Jumaah mubarakah everyone! I doubt there’s any reader for my half-hiatus blog XD

Anyway I just wanna share how glad I am to be able to reach another milestone in my career (though it’s not a big thing) but I haven’t done it since undergrad! So today I’ve done a fibre post and core build up for composite as final restoration of RCT treated tooth (21). It took me 2 hours to finish the treatment (so long!) but I blame the ineffectiveness of the burs. Tak lut weh. Need to use new ones I guess. 

PS: Of course I suggested the patient to do crown as final restoration, however due to logistics reasons patient currently unable to go for crown at specialist clinic.

I attended the course by Restorative dept (govt) last year, and so thankful I found a suitable patient to do it this year, and because specialists also encouraged us to do simple case in primary setting so i wanted to push myself :) Yeah, it’s kinda boring to do same procedures everyday as a regular dental officer (extractions, fillings, scaling) so I wanted to venture into new things to polish my skills and boost my confidence.

But it comes with a cost of course, I bought the materials myself since govt budget is so limited (especially at the end of the year) and I feel it would be unfair to request from SDO (I doubt she would even consider it lol) if the materials not being used often.. well resto specialist did told us to ask for district’s budget (even provided us the materials price quotation and suppliers), not just for post + core but also for simple crown and bridge. Currently tempted to do anterior crown as well, however after looking at the price for impression materials....hahaha nevermind..maybe later >.<

So what shall I try next? I feel bad for myself as I’m not keen to further my studies..yet (envy those who’s determined to study!) but I really want to do attachment at Resto clinic :D Insyaa Allah one fine day, please pray for me so that I can transfer to work at my place, Negeri Sembilan :) They have been postponing my transfer for 2 years already :( Ya Allah bukakanlah hijab para panel mesyuarat terhadap namaku supaya aku dapat berpindah ke klinik di Seremban pada mesyuarat bulan ini, aminnn.


Thank you for reading, may you have a great weekend :)

Empty thoughts

I doubt there's somebody out there who can understand me enough to not criticize me over my negative personality that I absolutely can't change overnight because the truth is-- you can't change people. You can just understand them, make them feel better by suggesting how they can see things in different  perspectives. People are not always positive; no you're not. (Except for Prof Muhaya :')

I salute anyone who can describe me as a whole honestly. Because sometimes, I don't even understand myself. I've read somewhere, don't let people describe you. But to me, I can learn how people see me through that. And I hope I can be a better person, as days goes by. But (again), I'm the type to just go with the flow. I avoid thinking about the future cause it's exhausting. To this day, I'm not growing in a way I imagined, perhaps new environment can help a bit, later on?

I miss usrah- my last usrah group. My murabbi is amazing, she still is. May Allah grant her His Great Blessings  day by day.






Ps: pms week is when i want to avoid people at all costs.
Pss: i'm an ISFP

i wonder..

..how do people have pure hearts?

Are they born with it?





ps: I'm thinking out loud

Summary: final year dental student life

Bismilahirrahmanirrahim.

As I scrolled down my past blogposts, I realized I haven't really mentioned what I did in my final year (last acad yr 2014/2015). Just that viva final pro exam thingy. 

So here goes my quite-an-achievement;

-issued & reviewed 12th denture (did 3 pairs & 1 single denture that yr)

-issued a set of Full/Full denture for prostho clinical exam with good remarks from the examiners & complete satisfaction from the pt (sampai tak nak dtg review ha)

-completed 3 anterior RCT (all premolars lol) 

-issued a URA to my ortho pt which was also my dear paeds pt afiq :)

-done 2 MOS (impacted teeth)-under specialist' supervision ofc 😅

-did 2 cantilever bridges and 1 posterior crown 

-finished 10th paeds extraction, 1 pulpectomy (but unsucessful since roots were too short), 1 pulpotomy followed by SSC placement on my handsome paeds pt, Ali :)

-completed 5 GDP cases with 2 reports

-completed 40 sites (kot?) of root planning & review for case report

- >5 DPH complete cases with 3x visits <25% plaque score, 2 tobacco cessation & 3 dietary advice given

-won 3rd place for 4th DSSC (kod level) & participated in the NDSSC.

Bila list out baru nampak mcm wahh i did quite a lot actually.. 😆 but not enough.

The bitter part was, I wasn't able to complete my Cons requirements; due to pt's problems, clinic unfavorable condition, time constraint & rezeki. So here I am in IIUM trying to finish these requirements within this final semester to be eligible to sit for my last pro exam paper this January In shaa Allah. Your prayers for my success are highly appreciated, jzkk! 😊

old buddy and.. crush?

Bismillah.

Last thursday, I just found out that my old school buddy is in town! She lived so nearby that I wonder why I didn't know that she's been here since..forever. haha. She just graduated from Mansoura, Egypt. The place where I planned to go to after SPM actually. Last time we met was probably in 2012? So long ago that we definitely need a catch up sesh!

So I went out with her on Friday, to temankan her doing her akujanji (or angkat sumpah?) and medical check up for upcoming HO position in HTAA. Cool. Ada geng around here during my final semester but I doubt she'll have time to hangout after starting work as doctor there. Sobss. So basically I got the rough idea on how to do stuffs before start working..

Of course we went for lunch and start updating ourselves. What's more interesting other than relationship stories? hahah. Well, obviously I don't have one.. yet ;p Sabby tu hotstuff so there were loads of stories to listen to hehe. Nak dijadikan cerita, she reminded me of my old old crush back then in 2008 when we were taking arabic course in GMN at UKM. So old that I was surprised she still remembered that hahaha (zaman hingusan k).

We (me, sabby and baby) called him binafsihi. Haaa amik course arab kot masetu harusla nickname pon arab LOL. Binafsihi means purple, cuz he wore purple tshirt during that time, I still remember all of us was in the meeting room and he sat across us, then we (or was it me?) secretly took his pic (with that purple tshirt). Omg I laughed so hard remembering how childish I was hahaha. So that was the only memory I had about him.

But since sabby brought up his name, I wondered if he's still single and she said yes. I actually didn't remember his face.. haha. So I asked her to show me his FB acc and there, nampak la profile pic and all and he looked.. different. Got matured I guess. And then.. I added him. On FB. omg. hahah that was my 1st time doing that! (adding quite a stranger haha). Of course I asked sabby to add him 1st (tho they were in the same uni & group but she said he was a quiet type so that's why tak friend) so that we have mutual friends. I don't wanna look like a creep. Then after finished eating, suddenly dpt notification yang he approved our friend requests. I was happy but in the same time so flustered bcos never did this kind of thing before hahaha dah besar kot -_-" Long after that, suddenly I thought, what was the purpose of me doing that? Ntahla. I don't have the courage to pm him directly of course. No expectations held :) The end XD

The next day, sabby invited me to her house. She stuffed me with food (did I mention she belanja me all the way through?) be it pizza or cooked home meal. Heaven :') Definitely a wife material la :D Thanks for the treat and sleepover sabby! Felt nice like college days again. hehe. Keluar la cerita2 our batchmates phoenix, made me realized I really miss my tkc girls. Tho I'm studying in Malaysia, I don't really spend time with my girls.. coz we got lots of exams and no study week. And no transportation pun 1 of the factor. huhu. Missed lotsa weddings.. As far as I can recall, I attended Din2, Sur and Sazuk's weddings je. Ohmyyy. Need to socialize better :')

My message is: go out and don't forget to contact your old buddies yea. coz you don't always wait for people to come and search for you, but you also need to reach out to them :)

Have a nice week peeps! Happy advance Malaysia Day :)

Random gesture

Saying hello out of the blue & asking how are you doing is not wrong at all.

Because friends do that.

Now I'm certain that we are not. Thanx!

Updated: Eventually it took you 2 months to reply, huh. Glad we are still friends :)

Esc.

So i was updating my bitdefender antivirus plus 2013 to the 2015 (latest version which has the new computer optimization feature) earlier this morning, tho i still have 275 days left on my current antivirus. Yeah, i bought the valid license key. It was written that i could upgrade for free so i thought, why not? (I will tell u later why not.)

 

As i went through the lengthy process of uninstall and re-installation, i finally got my new antivirus ready. Yeay me! However, when i entered my existing license key, it says--invalid. My heart crushed. How could this happen? I was sure i read the post about free upgrade clearly. Blergh! 

So i rant it out & emailed bitdefender asking why can't i use my validated key but there's still no response. 

I got impatient, so i searched for free key, keygen, and crack version. The key & keygen didn't work, so i downloaded the crack version. The app was Xan___ sth. All i need to do was shut off the antivirus and open the app and reboot my laptop using safemode and after it's done, the laptop will reboot to normal. I did it sucessfully, the activation thing, but when i rebooted to the normal windows, my laptop said-- windows fail to start.

Oookay. I was anxious. I tried the 'system repair' function but still, it didn't work. After the windows logo, my screen went black with my cursor hanging around. I freaked out then. I googled and most of the solutions couldn't be done, as i had no latest system back up restored. The only option was either to run windows using CD or to use Dell Data Recovery & Local Back up. I chose the latter one because i don't have internal CD player. Thank u Dell for this feature! It could restore my OS to factory setting without deleting my personal files. I could choose what to back up. And sadly, I don't have enough internal HDD memory to do that. I just need to buy a new external HDD so that i could back up all my precious pics & videos & ebooks and restore my windows. Money again 😪💸💸 But better than nothing aite? 

Oh why i shouldn't be doing this on the first place, u asked? Because i have my pro exams going on now! (It's the final exam that determines whether i'm eligible to be a dentist) And i wasted half of my day doing THIS. Lesson learnt, pretty harshly. 😂

Alright. I'm not an ICT student, i know. Please pray for both my exams & laptop will ya? Thanks 😊 (trying to accept the fact that i won't have laptop for a week 😢)

Thank you for reading! ;) Now go back to study.

Research

Mental health among university students represents an important and growing public health concern. Mental disorders are estimated to account for nearly one half of the total burden of disease for young adults in the United States (World Health Organization, 2002).In addition, a growing body of evidence suggests that mental health problems are numerous and increasing among students in institutions of higher education, which the majority of young adults attend.

Oh well, just finalizing my group's research report on depression, anxiety and stress. It's interesting how our brain works. How overthinking could complicate things. How we need to change our mindset to outgrow our capabilities. How comforting words may help, in some ways. Above all, how our beliefs (iman) towards Allah could save us from our misery. It's good if you can take control of your own self. You're on the right path then. Just my two cents.





ps: would anybody lend their ears or shoulder to me? :)

a short note

Assalamualaikum

There are so many things, memories, that i wish to pour them out here as writings. but taktahu kenapa when i berangan-angan nak tulis, bukak laptop, terus tekan sana sini dah terlupa tujuan asal T_T 

for some reasons, i don't like to share about my personal life. but personal experience such as trips to awesome places should be shared right?? just in case i get to make my readers happy/ inspire you, who knows ;)

most of them would be just throwbacks, because it takes a good time for me to write long, beneficial posts. haha. i hope i'm rajin enough to write you guys some useful posts later on! being postponing my written posts, thanks to pictures diary by instagram -__-

please pray for my hardworking-ness, happiness & not to forget my safety for the trip to bandung next week :D 

toodles~

doesn't matter anymore

too much heart aches these days. perhaps i'm too sensitive..

when you feel that you don't matter to anyone anymore,
when you feel that your presence or absence don't really make a difference anymore,
when you feel that your words don't touch others' hearts anymore,
when you feel that nobody appreciates you as you are anymore,

just remember this-- Allah is always there for His servant. 
Listening, caring, forgiving for people who turn to Him. 
Now.. does that ease your heart my dear? .





ps: consoling my fragile vulnerable heart.. 
My condolences goes to the families & relatives of MH017 passengers & crews. Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raajiun.. Al-fatihah.
Let's Strive for Lailatulqadr~

Year 4 Summary

Lately, my posts have been more personal, than the previous years.

I miss the funny side of me too, haha.

But being a 4th year student has taught me so much. I know my real self now and also got to know who the real friends are. Unfortunately, as I'm getting older, I barely have any close friends here. True story :) 

Maybe, I don't deserve to have one. I get grumpy at times especially when I don't get enough rest (sleep). Only sekime can handle me but well, she's busy with her club & society. Barely talk to her. So that explains my lonely life.. erh

Being a clinical student is so tiring that you have to make appointments by yourself (every day) and you need to find suitable cases to complete your requirements. And this year I had to issue & review at least my 8th denture (5 pairs this year)  so you can imagine how tiring the labworks had drained all my energy. Not including fabricating the ortho appliances (Clark Twin Blocks).

Struggle masak denture malam2

Me & sekime with her braces on! 

My 6th denture framework.. Done a Co-Cr for the lower one using altered cast technique which needs extra 1 visit

Clark Twin Blocks for Interceptive Ortho Treatment

One thing I learned (every year actually), is don't hesitate to do something and do not postpone it to the last minute! Be it patients or studies. Just do it. Or else you'll get stucked and at some point you'll lose hope. 

I was having difficult times when I had to do 2nd attempt for 2 of my promotional exams, and 1 re-viva. So basically I didn't passed smoothly for all my 3 clinical promo exams. You had to find your own patients, getting paranoid with your 1st attempt failures, and had to choose which examiners you want to do your exam with. And oh, at the same time don't forget to catch up with the requirements yea. My brain got jammed and I was very2 emotional during that time. Crying is my routine.

My secondary impression during 2nd attempt for Prostho. Baik sgt pakcik ni :) 

But after all exams done, I managed to put a smile on my face. I believe Allah has better plans for me so I just tawakkal to Allah. How I wish I didn't have to repeat my exams, but Alhamdulillah my requirements are okay compared to those who passed all exams but struggling to finish the requirements. 

Clinics and lectures just finished yesterday and now, I'm preparing for my end of block 4 exam this Monday. I still don't know whether I pass or not and eligible to be in the final year, still praying for it Insyaa Allah. 

Yesterday I had mixed feelings between happy (end of clinic) and sad, because one of our classmates has left KOD for good.. There's a protocol where we can't study here for more than 8 years, so he was asked to leave because he didn't take any promo exams this year.. I hope you're doing well out there and become a fine man 1 day insyaa Allah.. Thank you for being our friend although it was for a short duration. Pray for our success here too :)

Oh, not to forget, I managed to join a national dental conference (MIDEC 2014) last 2 weeks and it was a precious experience indeed! So much I learned there which somehow motivated me to open up my own clinic one day :) aminnn. Definitely need to participate again next year :D

Dummy patient from Japan.. she can talk & express her feelings!

Dlm lif pon sempattt selfie

KLCC yaww. Makan berdiri kayh

We are the volunteer team :)

So that's all-- my ups and downs as a 4th year dental student. I'm so tired I can't wait to finish this last exam and have a great long holiday. Thank you for reading and do pray for my success yea!

ps: gonna miss my partner kak farahah and my cubicle I5 hee

3rd Ramadhan as a 3rd Year student

Salam Ramadan Kareem to all :)

Woahhh it's been a year since my last post here. What a HECTIC year! Don't even have time to update. lol

Bukannya takdak masa langsung, tapi sumpah, bila anda jadi Year 3 dental student (in IIUM la other uni xsure), masa senggang yang ada tu anda ingin gunakan dengan sebaiknya untuk.. tido. ehee

Letih sangat-sangat tahun ni, sebab baru nak adapt diri dengan patients (dah start clinical year!) and at the same time kena bahagikan otak & jasad jugak untuk jadi medical student. Ya ampunn.. Boleh jadi bipolar tahu? :p dan untuk orang yang kurang stamina macam aku ni memang tidur tu adalah sesuatu yang nikmat.. lebih rela tidur daripada makan. eh ye ke?

Dan harini alhamdulillah, dah selesai 3rd Professional Exam, dah pindah semua barang-barang ke bilik baru yang jauh gilaaa ni (sakit segala urat sendi) dan dah menetap senyap2 disini. Dah tengok SSID sampai episod 7 to kill the time, dan sekarang dah tak tahu nak buat apa. haha. *gi ngaji nuhh*

Kenapa tak balik lagi kau tanya? Sebab nak tengok result yang akan keluar petang niii insyaa Allah. Cuak gilaaa tahu? Pro exam ni adalah benda yang paling menakutkan setiap tahun, sebab kalau tak lulus, kena repeat the whole year again. huu.. and this year it's even scarier because if u failed General Medicine & General Surgery (GMGS) subjects, you can't re-sit for the paper before actually being announce a repeat year student. huuu..

Ya Allah, kau kurniakanlah kejayaan lulus dengan cemerlang kepada hamba-Mu ini ya Allah.. aminnn :')

Dan sempena bulan puasa yang mulia ni, sementara syaitan2 tengah ditambat, mungkin kita boleh doa dengan lebih khusyuk dan lebih mudah terhijab doa kita hendaknya insyaa Allah..

So apa tunggu lagi? Selamat berpuasa semua :)

from Owh So Muslim #osm :)

regret

I'm sorry, for bringing up the same thing all over again when I knew it wasn't the right time to do it.
Sometimes the emotional side of me could be conquering  out of my conscience.
Ignore what I said, be happy, and focus on your track. With Allah's will, everyone can gain victory..
Let's succeed together, shall we?

InshaAllah. amin :)



Surah al-Syura, Verse 36 & 37:


'Whatever ye are given (here) is (but) a convenience of this life: but that which is with Allah is better and more lasting: (it is) for those who believe and put their trust in their Lord:
Those who avoid the greater crimes and shameful deeds, and, when they are angry even then forgive;'






"The world is three days: As for yesterday, it has vanished. As for tomorrow, you may never see it. As for today, it is yours, so work on it." - Hassan al-Basri

Berhenti berharap

Tiba-tiba teringat lagu ni. very nostalgic dudee. band ni famous gila masa high school dulu, around 2004. Ku petik bintang! haha. Here goes, 


Berhenti berharap by Sheila on 7 :)


Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati
Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini


Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan


Aku pulang
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Aku pulang
Tanpa dendam
Ku salutkan kemenanganmu


Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita


Aku pulang
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Rebahkan tangguhmu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua


Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta ku dapat.. ;)












ps: i wanna be the heartless frz again :) support frz 2.0!! lol XD

blank.

i wish my mind could be as blank as this. 




























































stop overthinking pleaseee -.- 



ps: no no, exam's around the corner, sit up straight and get your mind on the notes! :)

memories

I wanna be carefree.. like how I used to be :D

as I went through my fb tagged pictures, I stumble upon this.

we looked so innocent ere! ;D & i'm so hidden lol

us wearing Might-K's. 2006 perhaps?



Memories - Panic! At The Disco
He was the congregation's vagrant,
With an unrequited love.
When your passion's exaltation,
Then finding refuge is not enough.
She was the youngest of the family
And the last to be let go.
When they decided they would try to make it on their own.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Where'd you go?

When July became December,
Their affection fought the cold.
But they couldn't quite remember,
What inspired them to go.
And it was beautifully depressing,
Like a street car named Desire.
They were fighting for their love that had started growing tired.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Don't fade away!

When money lost momentum,
And the bills were piling high
Then the smile had finally faded,
From the apple of their eye.
They were young and independent,
And they thought they had it planned.
Should have known right from the start
You can't predict the end.

Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Oh Memories!
Where'd you go?
You were all I've ever known!
How I miss yesterday!
How'd I let it fade away?
Don't fade away! 

ps: Happy Malaysia Day :)

Going to update about my dental school life :)

Bosan.

Salam semua!

Excited plak aku. Eheh. Mana tak nya, sekarang blogspot dah bagi tukar favicon! Tak tau favicon tu ape? Ala icon sebelah link korang kat atas tu. Kalau dulu, nak tukar icon B tu punyalah payah (based on tutorial yang cikepal tu penah tulis kat blog dia la) membuatkan aku malas nak beriya2 tukar icon tu. Tapi sekarang ni sonang yo, pegi kat design tab, pastu trang tang tang korang akan nampak box 'Favicon' dekat atas sekali. Just upload a square picture, and it's done! Easy peasy right?  Icon aku guna tu tak lain dan tak bukan bf number 1 aku, L (myungsoo). dah2, pergi google sendiri L tu sape. kihkih.

L

Di samping aku membuang masa dengan spam boyfriendsS aku kat twitter, aku juga gemar meng-google japanese smiley sebab aku boleh gunakan smiley tu utk spam dorang.  Nampak tak connection kat situ? （￣ー￣） pfft. Anyways, aku just nak highlight part 'buang masa' tu. Aku juga berjaya menggodek2 photoshop & produce my very first ultimate piece of shit artwork :') tarik nafas dulu sebelum tengok hmphh~

Tadaa!

woohyun in his cheesy mode :P

Ok sila ketawa riang gembira sekarang! Buruk kan? hahaha i know i know. first try kot! dahla tak attend formal PS class, pergi workshop (dgn mariah woot woot) pun hampeh sbb semua yg diajar semua aku lupa. haha. Tp nak ckp thank you kat kina sebab tolong ajar sikit2 cara nak guna PS. :D Nampak tak apa yg aku nampak? Kunun2 nak buat splatter tapi jadi macam bunga kembang semangkuk je hrmphh :">


Ok guys jgn lupa komen banner tak seberapa aku ni, nak tlg ajar pakai PS pun boleh :)





Ps: INFINITE's new album teaser will be out at 11pm tonight! can't waittt ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ

Lu pikirlah sendiri

Mood: PMS

To: You-Know-Who (sorry but not you Voldermort)

Language: Rojak buah

Firstly nak ckp sorry sbb entry ni mmg xde gambar. Tak sesuai kot nak letak! :p

Ok, ape dah aku nak marah tadi? haaaa. Aku just nak ckp, kpd kawan-kawan lama yg rasa aku ni dah lupakan mereka atau lebih tepat lagi lupa kawan, aiyem sorree (read: i'm sorry). Sbb nye mmg btul pun. haha takdela. sbb nye aku tak tau la nak explain mcm mane, sbb nye (bape kali sbb tah) apa yg dorang rasa tu tak betul pun. dorang kena faham, aku ni pemalas, kalau dorang msg, aku ade sedikit malas dan kedekut nak reply, nak2 kalau msg tu berbaur general info. so generally i won't reply. kalau number maxis takpe, confirm aku akan reply sbb 1sen je. hehehe

Lagi satu wa nak ckp la, wa rasa lu sebagai kawan baik wa (walaupun birthday wa lu tak wish), lu tak payah la nak rahsia2 misteri2 sangat. sbb nye wa tak tau nak borak ape ngan lu kalau lu tak cerita pape kat wa. lu asyik2 suh wa cerita pasal boyfriend wa, wa ada sedikit tersinggung la sbb wa dah cramp2 jari tulis wa takde boyfriend! (kan dah semua org yg baca ni dah tau rahsia aku -_-) so apa kata lu cerita pasal perkembangan hidup lu plak? takkan la setiap kali nak reminisce moments zaman muda2 dulu, life must go on beb. yela mak wa pun penah ckp, jgn baik sgt dgn orang, maknanya tak payah la cerita semua2 kisah keturunan nenek moyang kat best friend lu, tapi wa tak mintak semua tu, wa nak lu cerita pasal perkembangan semasa lu je. tu jerrrrrrr.

Aha ni lagi satu, lu tak payah la nak condemn2 taste wa, wa minat lelaki jambu ke, jambu batu ke, betik ke sireh ke tak payah la nak pandang sinis. (tipu je, aku tak nampak pun reaction muka die cmne haha) Tau la taste wa tak hollywood cm lu. Tak macho bagai. Wa minat lelaki Asia je, Korea specifically, yg mmg possible nak jumpa kalau wa pegi konsert dorang. sbb tu wa minat penyanyi. kalau wa minat pelakon boleh jumpe dalam tv je, tak thrill la beb. (tp lu kalau dapat jumpa Alex Pettyfer jangan lupa roger wa XD) 

Memang muka dorang tak berapa nak macho, tapi dah mmg muka dorang camtu nak bwt camne. Takkan wa nak suruh dorang buat plastic surgery? (mentang2 la org Korea huuu sampai hati).  Lu kena tau pepatah 'rambut memang sama hitam tapi hati lain-lain'. Ke rambut lu tak hitam? sorry la wa tak tau lak rambut lu merah ke kelabu ke, tula wa dah suruh lu cerita lu taknak! :P Wa nak lu relax sbb wa minat sebagai hobi je (gile pedo noona -_-') wa bukan nak buat dorang jd husband pun. Chill eh? hehh

Ape tah aku merepek? haha gasak la. sape yang dah baca tu tahniah. sape yg tak bace lg tu, wa tulis khas buat lu ni! hahaha. tapi jgn butt hurt or heart sick eh, ni namanya sindrom gatal tangan nak tulis entry walaupun takde gossip sensasi. hehe. 

ps: dah jumpa SJ-M masa Hari Belia 2011. mantap la KBS :D

Yesterday 090511

Thank you everyone who remembered :)
Not to forget, all my twins: Puteh, Tasnim & Hakim Happy Birthday!

Special thanks to Kak Taqwa for this special post. so sweeeet. hehe

Still have 1 Physiology paper & OSPE left.

gotta read read read & study study study. TT___TT
jgn jadi mcm OB tadi asyik berair je mate jwb paper, tak cukup tido+tak cukup bace :P


just a short update. later!